It's nearly been three months since I last wrote here. I guess I was disheartened when five commentes turned to a consecutive zero, but I realised I didn't start this blog for people to read and appreciate my ramblings and tell me what I write is good. Don't get me wrong, I love to hear that people can relate to my own experiences, especially God encounters and what we may think a lack of God encounters. It makes this Christian walk feel a lot less lonely in a world full of lost people. What I initially started writing for is much different to the reason I write now. I had no idea of the soul searching that would take place in the time it takes to look inside your mind to try and translate it into words on a screen. Ha, naivity, gets the best of us.
It's less than four weeks till I head off to The University of Sunderland. Everyone asks the question 'Are you scared?' and when I can't be bothered to go into detail of my honest answer I just say 'yeah a bit'. I think I'm apprehensive, but no, not scared. I think some of the things that I've had to practice for years are starting to come naturally to me. If I was the person I was say, three years ago, I'm have been as scared as my dog when he sees a cat, the absolute fool. But continual practicing of not fearing things and being confident because Christ is within me is something I haven't had to try really hard to make my heart believe this time round. Similair to anticipating results day, I was so peaceful, rather than praying for Gods peace over and over. And I feel very blessed for that and thankful. I'm not trying to make it out that asking God for things such as his peace and confidence is a bad thing, not at all, hope you see where I'm coming from if reading!
I went to a wedding of one of my friends from church on saturday, meaning I spent the weekend in York and only arrived home this morning. Since then, I've been quite emotional. It makes me think of how tempremental the body part of our Body Soul and Spirit is. Feelings and emotion and everything, it's beautiful and fascinating but confusing. The complexity of one being is just astonishing when you think about it. I mean, what does that say about it's creator? How can some black matter or whatever create such a complex and intricately detailed being? It amazes me.
A close friend of mine describes me as having a musical soul. I think music triggers the my emotions a lot of the time. Maybe that's one of the detailps God included in creating us. Things our soul connects with. Places, mountains and oceans and lakes. Or Literature, paintings and novels and tapestry. Nature, animals, the weather, buildings. He takes so much into account, these things we see as so small that we care about, he really considors and dwells in with us I think. It's fascinating. God is fascinating. And God is love.
