Insomnia

So it's 2011...

and unfortunatley staying up till 6 on New Years day has completely messed up my sleeping pattern, haven't had a decent sleep this year yet. So I decided to write a blog with the main things whirling around my head, rather than lay in bed playing on my new christmas toy: iPod touch. I love that cut the rope game.

So, i'm going to take a risk and go straight into the deepest thing that has affected my life recently, which I only discovered last night. I have been robbed of Joy.
I mean, i'm generally a happy person, and although things may be going alright and sailing on, I've lost joy, due to numerous reasons.
I've come to realise how important joy is. I've always taken it as just another fruit of the spirit, you know, they're just some nice extra things God gives us to make us nice people. I was wrong. They are so important in making us who we are designed to be, disciples and followers of the Lord. How can I live a life of love without love? How can I not argue with my family and friends without kindness? How can I not be angry and upset with what life throws at me without peace and patience? And how can I live a joyful life without Joy? I can't. So when the devil robs you of such things, it can be very hard to live a life worthy of God.

A deep joy in knowing God's intense and tangible love, a content being is a full life.


I'm eighteen in 10 days
I'm going to do a blog of 365 pictures of a year of being eighteen. Exciting, watch this space.